This Place Is A Trap

So...Silas has started inviting me to go to church meetings, which is apparently a huge honor. He says Payton will be there. Only problem is I am not allowed out of the house until my dad thinks it's safe.  Which is not going to happen any time soon.  Which...not the worst thing in the world I guess. Father Barrows is kind of weird and I'd rather learn stuff from Silas.  I still want to see if I can get Penumbra to talk to me at some point, if only to see what goes on inside his studio.  I have an opportunity coming up though. My dad has to be gone one night next week and I'll be able to sneak out. Only problem is if I go to the church thing I will be gone all night and probably won't make it to the radio station, so I can only do one. So I have to decide that. 

I don't know what to say, not gonna lie. Things are rapidly exploding around me and everything is falling apart. My mom is missing, my memory lapses are getting worse, Henny and Payton are still AWOL...I feel like I can't trust anyone. Not even you guys. Silas keeps telling me I need to stop posting here but...I don't know. He's probably right but something still doesn't feel right. People are still going missing and Silas won't answer any more of my questions.  I...also realized I never told you guys what Silas told me when we first met. All of the answers I got before everything went to shit. I'm not sure I should now, but I might anyways. If you guys want me to. 

i dont know what happened im covered in blood and i dont know what happened oh god what did i do oh god oh god oh god i dont know what i did i dont know whos blood this is